Paha! You're actually going to read this, even after that title???!!! You amaze me, you know you're gonna be so bored with this by the end you'll be like....Really I just read all of that?! wow I have no life. So I'd turn back now if I were you. Don't say I didn't warn you.
Sooooo.....I think my meds are wearing off, or my body is adjusting to them or something cause I am bouncing like CRAZY. Maybe aliens took over my body. Yeah that's it.
Let me give you an idea of being in my bipolar life (Yes, these are actual thoughts) Ok during my manic episodes my thoughts go so fast that I don't really "think", I mostly just do. Then I get majorly depressed and I kind of sound like a dying cow complaining about life. It's hard to explain, it's kind of like explaining sex to a virgin, they get the knowledge of it, but they don't know what it's like to experience it.
(ALL CAPS MEANS SHOUTING AND EXCITING VOICES....all lower case means depressing or normal voices)
Manic:
I'M FRICKEN AWESOME, EVERY ONE WANTS TO BE ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HOLY CRAP I CAN FLY!!!
OH MY GOSH I NEED TO EAT ALL OF THE HOT DOGS IN THE WORLD!
I THINK I JUST STEPPED ON MY DOG! OH MY GOSH I DID AND I CAN'T FIND IT! OH WAIT I DON'T HAVE A DOG!
MY CAR CAN TOTALLY JUMP THAT TRAIN, LET'S GO CAR! YOU CAN DO IT I HAVE FAITH THAT YOU'LL SPURT OUT WINGS AND MAKE THE JUMP! (Again this is why I'm not allowed to drive during this stage)
I CAN DO A BACK FLIP, YES, I KNOW I'VE NEVER DONE ONE IN MY LIFE BUT SCREW THAT, I CAN DO IT! (Yeah after that moment I couldn't move my neck upwards for 6 months)
I'M GONNA JUMP OFF THAT!!!!
I'M GONNA SUPERMAN IT ON MY PARENTS TIRE SWING AND FLY!!! (see told ya I can fly)
GAH I NEED TO CLEAN (this is obsessively compulsive clean like I comb my carpets with a comb to make certain there is no hair on the floor clean)
I HAVEN'T SLEPT FOR 14 DAYS AND I'M GREAT!!!!!
WHERE AM I AGAIN?
I CAN DO THIS, AND THIS, AND THIS, OH I HAVE TO DO THIS!!!! (yeah don't give me a project during this stage it wont get done but I'll have a million started projects!!!)
HypoManic:
YEAH I'M AWESOME!!!!!
I CAN DO THIS 18 PAGE RESEARCH PAPER IN 4 HOURS. GOOD THING I PROCRASTINATED DURING MY DEPRESSION STAGE SO I CAN DO IT DURING MY HYPOMANIC STAGE!
I AM SO FOCUSED!....KIND OF...WELL....WHAT EVER I'M HAPPY!
I HAVEN'T SLEPT FOR 10 DAYS!!!
Depressed state:
Yeah I'm awesome....at being lame!
Gah do I have to get out of bed again?!
How many more years until I retire?!
Seriously, you want to talk to me right now....hold on, let me find my ear plugs.
I'm going to kick you
I haven't slept for 14 nights BUT I've slept for 14 days!
Bite me.
My world consists of bunnies that will eat you alive.
Normal state
I'M AMAZINGLY AWESOME!!!!
Yeah I can totally do that, but I'll procrastinate until I get to my hypomanic stage :)
EVERY ONE WANTS TO BE ME!
I'm freaking hilarious (chuckles on the inside and winks at my computer)
WHY DOES SHE EVEN HAVE THAT LEVER?! (emporer's new groove is ALWAYS going through my head)
seriously you actually read this?
OH MY GOSH YOU ACTUALLY READ THIS?!!!!!
Zombies are totally going to rule the world, but then once their abducted by aliens the dinosaurs will rise up again.
WOW THERE SHOULD BE ZOMBIE DINOSAURS!!!!
How would I kill a zombie T-Rex?
CRAP I HAVE TO DO MY RESEARCH PAPER!!! WHY AM I IN A NORMAL MOOD AND WHY AM I WRITING A BLOG??!!!!
Pa ha! See I totally warned you! I'm just laughing and winking at my computer now. :)
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